When my son's girlfriend gave him a hamster, nineteen months ago, I wasn't pleased. I'd been telling my son, "No", on the subject for quite some time...I didn't want to have another living thing that I might end up being responsible for, and whose loss I would someday mourn. I was determined to have nothing to do with this hamster, who my son named, "Baxter".
Yes, you guessed it, I became attached to that cute little guy, completely against my will...Today I took him to the vet, because he'd been having trouble eating, and had been quite lethargic...The very kind vet told me that Baxter had a large cancerous (he presumed) tumor in his mouth, and he gently recommended putting the little sweetheart to sleep, to prevent him from suffering any longer.
I called my son, who was at school, and he said to please go ahead and have it done. I spent about ten minutes holding Baxter, prior to the inevitable...He made his cute little squeaky noises in my ear, and had a couple of bites of a strawberry that I'd brought with us...And yes, I cried like a baby...When they offered to take him into the other room to put him to sleep, I said I wanted to be with him when they did it...I feel that we owe it to our pets (in this case, our kids' pets), to be with them until the end...They gave him the injection, and then I held him for the minute or two that it took for him to go...He just seemed to curl up and go to sleep.
I was surprised at how much love I felt for this little guy...If he hadn't had that cute little face with those cute little whiskers, and that sweet little squeaky noise, I might have been safe...I heard in a movie recently, (can't recall which one), that God gives us brave hearts, so that we will love people, animals, etc, knowing that someday we'll have to feel the pain of losing them. I suppose we can't withhold our love in order to protect ourselves, even though I think we do try sometimes, to do just that.
I think the point is, to love completely...Even though it will hurt later...Take care, Katie
PS I know my last two posts have been on the sad side...That's just part of life, and in this case, part of blogging.